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You wont realise how much that someone loves you
Created on : 28th July 2010
Creator : Aycndygrl

I have a friend, named Farlin. Who will always be with me whenever i need someone to talk to. Who cares about me deeply. Who will entertained whenever im bored. Who will accompany me when i cant sleep. Who's honesty i respect. Who turns thr frown on my face to a smiley one. Easy to say, he would do anything just to see me smiling and alive. Now, everything was used to be. I almost killed myself for being so stupid.

People were talking bout Farlin and I, about us seeing each other, dating. It irritates me that people actually believe the rumous that Farlin and myself were attached. Yes i do like Farlin, as a friend, not more than that. I wasnt really sure about what i heard from people. They said Farlin loves me and treats me as a girlfriend even if im not. Being afraid and stupid, i decided to drift myself away from him, away from a friend that actually made my day, everyday.

There's this one time that my girls asked out. So i did shop with them, without Farlin around me. Unluck struck me while im on my way home with Sarah and Gale. We met with an accident. The two girls got some broken limbs and bruises, and i, was in a critical condition. So critical that my heart could just stop beating while im on my way to the hospital in ambulance.

I woke up from the tragedy, and really felt guilty about the wrong doing towards Farlin i made. I told the nurse to get my cellphone and called up Farlin for me. She gave me that weird look that i wont even want to ask why, but i had to. I told the nurse that i really need to talk to Farlin. Without any words coming out from her mouth, she hand me a note, and then walk away.

With curiousity, i read the letter, and it says......

"Hey pretty girl, its been a long time i last see you smiling wide. Those were the times. Well i guess you would just wonder why am i writing a letter and not being by your side. I have two things to tell you. First, its about the rumous, the one that they said i loved you? Well believe me, its all true. Forgive me if you felt weird, i know its funny that i really want you in my life. I dont have the guts to tell it to you before, because i know you would never accept it.Now, for the second one, i want you to know this from me and not from others. I do hope that they didnt, because this would be the last request from me. I got to know from Gale. So i rushed down to hospital. Talked to your doctor, and he said that you wouldnt make it, unless if you have a heart replacement as soon as possible. And i think you already guess it. I dont care about you drifting away from me. I only care and appreciate the times we had together. And do you remember, you ever told me you wanted to be a writer? I just want you to live your dreams, to acheive that goal you ever wanted and to see you smile wide as ever. Girl, i think its only till here, i wouldnt want to delay the operation, or you wouldnt get the chance to read this, I LOVE YOU <3"

My eye were flooded by tears. How could i be so blind to see that he is someone great to have as a boyfriend? Im pretty sure that sweet talkers would never sacrifece themself for me. 4 years had passed, i am now a known writer in my Uni campus. I am now here in uni as i didnt gave up easily, because i my heart told me not to, so did Farlin. I still keep the letter he last gave me till now and infinity. Whenever my friends have problems with their partners, all i could say was "You wont know how much that someone loves you...... till their gone." I am now appreciate life and living it better. Like Farlin used to say "It is too late to regret, as you chose it to be that way. Just move on and be a better person." I am now living with Farlin, as a part of life, FOREVER i will. I just wish i could say that i love him too...... <3